7:41PM - Wednesday November 26, 2003
Meltdown
So, I cried myself to sleep last night, had a major meltdown. It all just got to be too much: the broken leg, the pain, the money troubles, no boy snuggles and no girl snuggles... All bad. All angst all the time. I was probably due though, and it was cathartic. When I have a meltdown whatever's on my mind just comes flying right out my mouth, and what's best is that there are no recriminations afterwards because hey, you're a big crying emotional mess, right? It's very cool. I think I ragged the Boy out for not being more together and not doing the dishes and being grumpy when I asked him to do things for me.

See, when I'm sick or depressed or broke, I can still keep it together enough to wash the damn dishes, and get work done. I'm slowly coming to the conclusion that that ability is a woman thing. Women just keep going under pressure, men stop drop and roll. I'm still kind of angry at how useless the Boy was on the morning of my surgery last week. It completely baffles me. What's up with that? Gah.

Okay, and now I have more and better reasons to yell at him, I just had a customer drop by to pick up her dance clothes and he didn't leave a clear path to the window, and I just fell and hurt myself. He is so dead when he gest home.

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