1:19PM - Saturday November 29, 2003
Aftermath
So after an afternoon of feeling miserable and crying and stuff, things got taken care of and I got over it. Butch did the dishes and cleaned the kitchen a bit, then went and had a nap then made supper for me. The rude Boy apologized, but it didn't really make me feel all that much better. I was weepy for quite a while. I think Butch stuck around and hung out for quite a bit becasue she wanted to be sure I was okay. She hates it when I cry.

Nezumi is about the sweetest person on the face of the earth--she's offered me her mad personal care skillz for free a couple of times a week so I don't have to worry about the house being filthy and stuff. She coming over this evening after work, and Tuesday and Thursday this week. She rocks the world.

The Boy was shamed by all of this and actually emptied the goddamn garbages. I think he feels really shitty that he can't seem to hold it together. He told me he didn't want to be the enemy, and I told him that I didn't want him to be either. I told him I was really angry and frustrated, and that it was embarrassing for my friends to come and visit me, and that now he didn't have to worry about it anymore. I asked him why me taking care of him was so different from him taking care of me and he told me that I was just better at some things.

The whole thing is just really sad. I'm going to try to make as few demands on as possible because he's just too unreliable at this point.

God, I can't wait until I get a walking cast.

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