2:44PM - Wednesday December 3, 2003
Escapism
Well, this week has been remarkably angst-free. Thank god. Nezumi came over and we did a bit of cooking, she did the dishes and my laundry, we chatted and she gave me a backrub becasue I managed to fall yet again and I had some sore muscles. Gah.

I've been foolishly squeeing over the thought of the CuteSnarkyBoy coming up for a visit, and anxiously counting sleeps, and being unable to fall asleep. It's fun being all crushed out, but the fact of the matter is, my life is pretty damn complicated. I like him a lot, but I have to find out exactly how traditional he is when it comes to relationships and stuff. I have intense conversations in my head where I try and plan out how I'm going to broach the topic, long monologues on my relationship policies, reassurances about sex, love, my level of commitment to polyamoury... My mind races a mile a minute an dit takes me quite a while to get to sleep. Liking a boy really complicates my life.

I like to be honest and upfront about things right from the start. It's not fair to either party to hold back at all. I need to find out right at the beginning whether or not somebody will be comfortable with my lifestyle. To his credit he already knows that I'm poly AND kinky, and it hasn't scared him off yet. He's also been through the soon-to-be patented UberWench method of Potential Boyfriend Testing--the trip to the ER. He passed that one with flying colours--he was sweet, attentive, made me laugh, held my hand, and even told the nurse when I had to pee. Passed with flying colours.

So, this weekend is going to be the first time I get him all to myself. I think I am justifiably excited. You're all going to be sick of me, I know, but I'd rather be thinking about hot sex and cute boys than my stupid leg. It's my escapism for the week.

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